Patience (2008)
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Now I must sign
off. Even though I am adult, spirit suggests that I mentally recite,
"Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I
should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take." I
wonder whether I could include this very powerful prayer in a link….
As we grow older, the
desire for death increases.
This is why many hymns relate to death and dying, and I am not immune
from this desire to die.
Yet when asking spirit how large my website will ultimately be, I
received the answer, “70 x 70”!
Talk about having the need for patience!
Since it is getting
late and I have an appointment today at
Throughout my website or other writings you will find words such as
“patience” spiritually explained in some detail. It is my desire
that the detail will be sufficient so one can learn from my explanation
of the word. Some of these words were given to me from spirit by
way of my spiritual monitoring mentor, Bishop Sandra Adler of
“Patience” is my word of the month for December, 2005. The fact that
it is the word of the month (since Christmas and other holidays occur
this time of year) that creates so much joy and unhappiness for much of
the world’s population in itself should make me uneasy. However, I
am thankful that spirit is with me, has inspired and is still inspiring
me with words and images.
I have some trouble distinguishing “patience” from “gratitude,” for
it is through developing a patient attitude that one can experience the
best life has to offer.
If I were to create a one word theme for “patience,” it would be: My life has been largely
spent with learning to be patient with myself and others.
By nature I am a feeler, which means that the central core of my
being relates to the world through my feelings. If I allow it, this
could create hardship by my judging myself or interpreting the response
of others as judgmental. Yet my trust in my guidance is so strong
that I rarely judge myself as weird or strange, even though I frequently
cry or sing wailing songs (I have learned that many songs are songs of
wailing the blues, which I know to be very effective toward eliminating
pain.) However, I am pleased to realize that most of the songs
sung to me by guidance are pleasant.
Through faith in myself and in guidance I almost always find it easy
to fall asleep at night and get a good night’s sleep. It seems
that I almost always place my trust in God. My ability to trust in
God has recently been reinforced by the lessons I have learned being a
Mason (see the websites devoted to “freemasonry.”)
Part of the life experience of patience has been for me to learn to
forgive and to be forgiving. From the Inner Peace Movement,
another organization founded by Dr. Francisco Coll, I have felt a sense
of belonging with many like-minded individuals. This sense of
belonging has been one of the mainstays of my life. Although
verbally I may have expressed a lack of faith in guidance or God, deep
within myself I have always known that I am never without the grace of
God.
In all the incarnations I have had, I believe the hardest lesson I
have learned or yet to learn is that of patience. Although I have
been going through much torment in this lifetime, I have always found
much security by trusting in guidance. It is as if I have always
known that by trusting in guidance I will never be given a situation
that I cannot handle.
Inspiration from my guidance has been the fundamental factor in my
life assisting me to adjust in this incarnation. However, if I
have not lived through many difficult experiences, I would not have been
able to write about them.
Yet, how can anyone ever doubt living within the grace of God or
being one with all things if he almost continually hears the wonderful
voices of spirit singing to him? Through patience I have learned
that I am worthy of and seemingly can always find love, either of
myself, of or from others. I believe that I have always been
blessed by God in everything from the timing of events to the ability to
give and receive love. I have really seen this in many events of
this past week. However, this has not actually been an exceptional
week. I know I have always been guided by the grace of God, even in my
darkest moments.
Many have been the gifts I have received from God this lifetime,
ranging from the chief one of being reincarnated again to serendipitous
events or blessings and lessons or reinforcement of lessons I have
learned from others. Through patience I have found much beauty in
my life and that of others. Because I know that a soul can create
beauty in himself through his own thinking, I have included the
words, “you are beautiful,” as part of my most important prayer (see
CLEANSING AND HEALING OF ALL THE UNIVERSES in this website)..
Knowing, seeing, believing and understanding are four important words
I use frequently to assist me in understanding what is happening to me
and what I must do to continue to be sufficiently happy with myself that
I do not terminate prematurely either consciously or unconsciously this
lifetime on planet Earth.
David C. Hakim
Rochester
November 28, 2005
February 15, 2008